Bullet Journalling, what have I done?!

My new foray into bullet journaling has kept me pretty busy for the last week. As you have all probably realised, I’m atrocious at updating on time. This is odd for me as I am a massive stickler for being on time. I think the last time I was late for anything was when I was still taking buses and mine didn’t turn up. So, I thought that maybe it isn’t my time keeping that is the problem but my organisation skills. Hence the journal. I am not artistically talented and so there will be no out of this world images or mind-blowing sketches. I love to be creative and draw but I know I’m not good at putting it on paper. I use my words to bring things to life, not my crayons. This is still really fun as its just for me. I still wish I could draw though.

All of the pages have been inspired, copied or are imitations of other people’s journals. I have browsed many a blog, google, and pinterest for references and ideas. For anyone that is also just starting out, these are great places to help you get started.

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My journal starts with a large calendar that shows the year to come. This starts from August as I wanted to begin from the beginning of a month and that is when I will start getting ready for the final University year. I overused the colours but I enjoyed drawing it out. It’s odd how soothing measuring out sections can be. I have highlighted any bank holidays, including ones unique to where I live. I have also shown any days to remember, such as Mother’s/Father’s Day. This seemed like the logical place to start before I realised I had left off space to identify what day matches the date. This isn’t a big issue as I list it later on, but still not the best thought out page.

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The second page looked like a great idea when I saw it online. I like how it looks but (for me) it doesn’t make the reading list look any more interesting. This page is split into three sections, my two modules with reading lists, and what I want to read. I have done it this way as I must work from the top of the list before I can read from the bottom. The books just aren’t what I am interested in. There are some good reads mixed in with the bad, but it is still a bit of a chore. I would love to have found a layout that makes this seem a bit less daunting. This one is as close as I could get. This might not be a relevant addition to every journal, and could in fact be replaced with films or series. I have seen some great images of people tracking which episode they are up to in the series’ they are watching. I just don’t have many to track at the minute as a lot of mine are on a break.

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The third page so far is a page waiting to be filled. It has a calendar ready for when I have my final deadlines for the year. I won’t know these until I’m back in September but I wanted this page as close to the front of the book as possible. I started to try and do the title in a font similar to that of the Walking dead. I was going for the ‘Walking Deadlines’ pun, it failed, miserably. I am happy with the rest of the page, even the dodgy looking plant doodle that I have attempted. The page is fine, it’s what needs to go on it that I’m dreading.

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Page four and five are a second planner. A full year with space to add a few notes. This is so I can add a reminder for things that I want to put in the journal, but I’m not at that moment yet. If that made sense. I will do week to view pages later on that will allow me to keep on top of work over a months’ time. I don’t want to be overwhelmed and so I am going to keep it down to a month only. I have to admit that even though this is a simple layout, this is my favourite so far.

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The last thing I will include in this blog is the tracker page. This is another of the reasons I wanted to keep one of these journals; to track certain activities I do every day. This for me is simple, pills, teeth, health, and reading. I want to try and keep an eye on how often I am doing these things and this will allow me to do that. This page is for July even though I did’t want to start until August, as I wanted to start the tracking as son as I could. I’m not happy with how it looks and so will lay it out differently for August, but it will work.

On a side note, a lot of people have told me about washi or wasabi tape, as you can see I have bought a roll but I personally think it looks a mess. Could somebody explain why they like it so much and how they use it? I know it’s often a page boundary or to separate things, but I think it sticks out a bit too much. I might have to try a few different types to see if I get a feel for them.

Anyways folks, here is my first attempt at bullet journaling. I will try and keep you up to date with it as I go along but I’ll see how I get on. This may replace my normal period blog as I have been put on a new pill that stops my cycle. Let me know what kind of posts you are wanting, even if it’s more on reusables, journaling, crafts, or more.

Thanks for reading and please subscribe!

Charlotte x

Metal Earth Cinderella Castle, craft project

Finally, a craft update for you all. This one is a little different to my usual craft attempts. On my recent trip to Disneyworld I picked up a Metal Earth project. I had never heard of these before but I was intrigued. They all looked stunning on the pictures and I had to buy the Cinderella castle model. I did forget to take pictures of things before I started the project so I apologise for that, however I have taken one of the metal frame the pieces came from and the packaging.

I have never attempted anything like it. No glue or tools needed apparently. Utter rubbish! I needed tools. I used a pair of tweezers to manipulate the pieces and a scalpel to remove the bloody things from the frame. I also needed to used glue four times overall, mainly because I broke the tiny pieces when I became angry, but that’s not my fault! They’re small! A word of warning, the pieces are quite sharp so this kit is really not suitable for younger people. The packaging says 12+ but I know a few 12 year olds that wouldn’t be great with this so use caution. The instructions that come with the kit took a tiny amount of figuring out but that may just be because I don’t usually do this type of thing. They were really straight forward once I realised what the colours of the pieces meant. If they are in a certain colour that means there are more than one of that shape, so they are not just spares as I initially thought. Woops.

Anyways, its finished and honestly, I’m pretty proud of myself. It’s a bit lopsided in places and wobbly but look at it! It’s really pretty. It’s going on my newly cleared shelf that I am hoping to fill with things like it. I am looking at buying a few more of these as I did enjoy building it despite my frustration. I have my eye on a Star Trek Enterprise one as well as a great looking Tiger Tank. There are a lot of them that are available on Amazon, I even saw a few in Waterstones on my last visit. Price wise they are around £15 I think. This one was bought on site in Disney Florida so it was probably around $30, think they had a deal on if you bought two but I had a voucher that only covered one so I didn’t bother. A nice little project, doesn’t take long to complete, maybe a few hours for beginners like me. I probably took around 5-6hours to complete it.

And there we have it, a little crafty update. I’ve done a few other things which I’ll try and write about soon, but for now please let me know how you got on with these kits. Send photos! Would love to see the results. Also, to find out if I’m the only one that resorted to super glue.

Thanks for reading!

Charlotte x

 

Those Freshers are lookin a bit crafty

I promise that I haven’t given up on my whole ‘learn a new skill’ resolution, it’s just going very slowly. I did make a few pompoms which I enjoyed but haven’t taken any photos of and they’re at home so I can’t show proof. I promise I made actual round pompoms though! Even tied them together and made a snowman, sewed a little hat and scarf and everything. I’ll show you all when I get home for Christmas.

Anyways, I am currently back at university for the Freshers week and have absolutely nothing to do before classes start next week and so I decided to focus on my reading and my crochet. I went into the local crafts store and she gave the advice that many of you have already given me. I was to buy a bigger hook and thicker wool. I did just that and here is the result.img_1734

Not perfect at all and for some reason it doesn’t maintain its shape. Is that because I change how tightly I pull the hook through the yarn do you think? I’m pretty proud of myself for what I have so far, planning to keep going so I have a very thin and misshapen scarf or something to that effect.

So it’s just a quick little update, I’m thinking of getting even thicker yarn and an even thicker hook but I’ll see how I feel next time I’m out shopping. Please send me ideas for fun things a beginner like myself can make as I would love to actually make something.

Thanks for reading!

Charlotte

 

Citalopram withdrawals, my anxiety

Sorry this is going to be a bit of a ranty post as i’m feeling a bit rubbish and wanted to complain. A lot of people are aware that I’ve been taking anti-anxiety medication for the past year or so. I started taking Citalopram when my panic attacks started to happen every day instead of every other week and my anxiety was pretty much constant. I finally decided it was time for me to come off of the meds! I’m not going to lie, my panic attacks haven’t stopped but have become less frequent and I’m better at controlling my attacks and so I thought the summer before my second year would be perfect. It would have been ideal if I didn’t have to work but I’m struggling through alright. You just won’t see me outside of work and will very likely hear me say I’m feeling ill. Get used to hearing me say this as it’s supposed to last a while.

Before I get in to how I’m currently feeling I’ll let you all know that whilst taking these pills I felt a hell of a lot better than I did at this time last year. I could control my anxiety and I went 9 months without having a full panic attack. I don’t think I’ve ever gone that long without having one before and it felt amazing. The first week taking them I felt pretty rough. Every side effect listed I felt other than the suicidal thoughts thankfully. Because I was a mess and seriously questioned whether I’d made the right choice. To anyone currently going through that, don’t give up! Once your system is used to them they will hopefully help you as much as they did me. If not then go back to the GP and see what can be done! It’s worth sorting out.

On to the coming off of citalopram. I did as advised and before I decided to stop taking them I visited the doctor to see what he recommended. In his words ‘if they’re no longer working then just stop taking them’ this didn’t sound right to me as I’d been told not to stop and that I should come off them slowly but when I asked he told me it would be fine to just stop. Worst thing I’ve done, ever! It has been 10 days since I last took a tablet and I feel absolutely awful. I’m going to bed at 8.30 every night and have disrupted sleep, night sweats and vivid dreams. I could cope with the constantly being tired but I can’t handle the constant nausea. I have only vomited the once and honestly wish it was more because sometimes puking makes you feel better. I feel like the room is spinning and all unbalanced and horrible. These mainly hit in an afternoon and I try to eat as much when I first get up as I can because no matter how hungry I feel later in the day, I struggle to eat. If anyone comes in to contact with me in the next few weeks I apologise in advance as I can be a bit impatient and snappy even when I don’t mean to be.

I feel awful and wanted to share this as if you’re advised to just stop taking this medication, please question the doctor! I knew better, I should have followed my instincts and weaned myself off of them but I didn’t think it would be this bad. This withdrawal can apparently last around 6weeks and so I still have another month of feeling like this. If you have any tips on how to make things better then I’ll love you forever. I’m also due to start my period any day and so i’m very likely to feel even worse, so you all may want to avoid me in the next week or so.

Even feeling shitty as I do, I would still go on this medication if I reached that emotional point again, they are worth it! I’m proud of myself for coming off of them even though I currently would trade my body for anyone else’s. Anyone out there that is depressed or anxious or has attacks, please don’t wait until it reaches boiling point before you get help. There are milder medications then what I’ve taken! If you don’t want to try prescription medication then try herbal ones. Don’t let it linger. If anyone wants to know how I cope with my anxiety or anything about my attacks and what I’ve found sets me off, then don’t hesitate to ask. As I’m sure everyone is aware from having read my blogs, I’m pretty open to talk about anything, so just ask!

Now if you don’t mind I’m going to go curl up in a ball and feel sorry for myself before I have to get up for my 7am shift tomorrow.

Charlotte x

A crafty update

Today has been a bit of a crafty day again as I’ve tried a few new little projects. Both with my cloth pad making and my crochet. I’ll start with the cloth pads. I’ve managed to make a few more from my own penned out design and I’m getting a lot better at my top stitching. Still need to work on my starting stich as my pads don’t turn over very symmetrically. I tried altering my design slightly and things ended up a little better but my wings didn’t look very nice. I’ll work on my original design again and try a few new things.

I did try to do an exposed core pad as well as I’ve seen a few videos and tutorials on how to do this and really wanted to try it out but my sewing machine didn’t want to cooperate with me. The thread keeps snagging or breaking. I’ve tried changing threads, rethreading an altering the thread tension but none of this seemed to help. I’ve given up for today and I think I’ll give it another go soon.

As for the crochet, I’ve tried little crochet flowers and haven’t done very well. I got a bit sick of doing straight rows and ending up with off shape squares and thought I’d try something else. It hasn’t worked so far but I’ll keep having a go when I get the chance. I haven’t included pictures because it went so wrong it pretty much unravelled and so I have nothing to show for my effort, but trust me, it looked great….ish.

A bit of a short update but I honestly haven’t been up to much this week. Will try and be a bit busier next week and maybe get a few more reviews done. It’s my own fault, I’ve been watching a new anime and got a bit caught up with it. It’s called ‘Free!’ and it’s about a swimming club which sounds boring but it has a lot of really likeable characters. I heard about it through a YouTube channel that I follow, ‘Dollastic’ who gets really excited about loads of stuff and is really fun to watch, she really cheers you up so here’s her link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCI_DrjoooGWVxAPt7N3Ybag

If there’s anything you want me to write about or if you have any crochet patterns you think I should try out please let me know!

Dabbling with a sewing machine

For those of you following my crochet progress, I haven’t given up! I am still working on it but the square has yet to appear. I am getting neater lines but around half way through I change the tension I use and it becomes misshapen. I’ll update the progress once there’s more to report.

I haven’t stopped there though. I managed to purchase a cheap £10 sewing machine to be able to make my own cloth menstrual pads and I’ve been enjoying trying my hand at that. I’ve only ever used a sewing machine back in high school, maybe once or twice. The neatness of my work leaves a lot to be desired but I’m getting better and am pretty proud of my progress so far. I love finding materials and hunting down really nice prints of fabric. Mainly bought star trek or Spiderman themed cotton for when I get a bit better. It’s my incentive to progress.

I was given a box of old fabrics some of which I don’t know what they are. I started out using these before I ruined anything I’d spent money on. My first attempt, well that didn’t work very well.IMG_1180

I’d just brought the machine home and spent around an hour, maybe two; trying to thread the bastard. I managed and had to try my hand at sewing a pad immediately. I didn’t draw any template or have any idea what I was doing, as the result clearly shows. I’ll also say that threading a sewing machine is a skill I never knew existed. I ended up taking the entire thing apart with a screwdriver thinking I was missing something. I wasn’t it was just hard dammit!

My second attempt went a little better than the first. The thread isn’t very straight and the colour is a bit off for the lighter fabric, but it’s not a disaster. I didn’t use a proper centre, just scrap material to see if I could make a pad. I was pretty proud of myself to be honest.

I spent last night drawing up a basic template which I will be tweaking. I then used my own fabrics to make a usable pad. I’m super proud of myself! It looks and feels like a pad! The thread is a bit pulled in places but not too bad. It only needs snaps to be complete and I don’t have any of those yet because I can’t afford any extras. After pay day I’ll be buying me some snaps.

So yeah, this is my new, learn a new skill. I will continue my crochet, but I think I enjoy sewing a little more than I expected. The excitement may wear off but I doubt it.

Thanks For reading!

Charlotte x

It has edges!

A crochet update for my lovely readers: I achieved a finished product! Tada! I know what you’re all thinking, my masterful technique and skill is beyond your wildest comprehension and you’re all awed by my talent. I hate to let you all down by telling you this but…it was supposed to be a square okay! I know it makes an amazing wonky half circle thing but I don’t know when it went from nice neat little rows to, oh so wrong.

It’s an achievement though, I finished the rows until I ran out of them and then tied them off. My first completed project. I will try again and again until I get it right.

I did manage to get it right on the next try! Look at this picture!

It’s still not fully square but that’s because it’s a work in progress, it’s a rectangle. I managed to get fairly even rows, only a few missed stiches and it only took me about 2 hours to do. Yes, 2 hours. I’m sure I’ll get faster at it eventually but for now I’m proud of my small achievement. I’ve been invited to try other designs and eventually I will but for now it’ll be boring row upon row until I can do it in my sleep, then on to the next challenge.

Also a quick note, I may have mentioned The Art of Crochet magazine before but I do not recommend it. The customer service team are very rude and they don’t send out the bonus gifts when they say they will. They were really difficult with me when I initially bought the subscription a few years ago and so i’d say stick to YouTube 🙂 x

Charlotte x